I've risen from the dead, bitches!

That's right. After almost 2 yrs of not blogging (I blame my job and kids), i've decided it's time to get my thoughts out in a more conducive manner. Otherwise known as blogging. Now i'm not going to make any crazy commitment about posting every day or every other day- just a commitment to not let it go another 2 yrs. Fair enough?

Today a friend of mine on fb started posting old pics and it brought up how I feel about my life right NOW. Right now, i'm feeling a bit out of place. I just transferred to a new store with new people and new managers. Change is always for the best but the older I get, the harder change gets.
I've been extremely introspective lately. Like, disgustingly self aware of my strengths and weaknesses. What i'm seeing is a loss of friends that I use to have. I see myself avoiding social interactions and shying away from friends. So what am I doing to change this? I'm not quite sure just yet. I don't think i'm happy with myself in general right now. I think that once i'm happy with myself, internally and externally- the rest will come more easily. I do know that I need to eat better, go to the gym, spend more time outdoors, BLOG, and just be creative. Is this a mid-life crisis? Good God. I hope not.
I hope this is the first step to getting myself back to my old self. I kinda miss her.

Dun-Dun- DUNNNNNNNN

Tomorrow is the day I swore would never happen. I turn 30 years OLD! OLD, not young. I hate it when people say they are "30 years young". WTF ever! I'm not taking it well. I think that my life is passing by way too quickly and it's passing by without me ever having any fun. Don't get me wrong here, I love my life. I do. I love my family, my friends and I even *heart* my job. I just really wish there was more time for all of the things that I love doing and people I love being around. I don't think life was intended for it to be this way. I don't think we were made to work 40 plus hours a week working for the "man" and spend time away from our loved ones.

I really can't complain about my life. For instance, I still have all of my appendages. Which when you look back at all the things that could have possibly taken your arm off and yet you still manage to have it on your person, that's pretty damn amazing. I'm also sane. I'm probably the most "sane" person out of my friends, present readers excluded of course. I also have the family thing down. I don't have a family to "start" or a boyfriend to marry so I'm good in that department. I'm also happy that I'm with someone who is in it for the long haul. Someone who accepts me for all of my flaws, my weird family, and my introvert personality. Thank you for putting up with my sh*t. Let's hope I get better with age.

Do you ever worry that people aren't going to show up to your own party? I do. Maybe it's just my insecurities. Side note, people really need to be more cordial and RSVP by the date requested. That really annoys the FRENCH (rock of love bus) out of me. Thank you for those who did and a big F YOU to those who didn't even feel the need to reply, "maybe", "no", or "yes". As if taking an extra 3 seconds of your facebook time to simply click a button would be too much to ask for. Who cares if I'm saying this anyway? NO ONE READS MY BLOG! and those of you who do, did RSVP. :)

Anyway.

30 is not the new 20. 30 is 30 and I'm just going to have to live with it. On another note, I'm getting WASTED tomorrow night. I don't want to be coherent in any way shape or form. There's only one 30th birthday a girl can ever get. I may as well start the 30's off with a grand entrance.

Interesting....

Tonight I'm going to V's house because she and her roommate are throwing a "passion party" if you know what I mean. I've been to one in the past and I was pretty flabbergasted at how women act at these things. I mean, am I just a prude? Don't answer that. I just don't think cheering at tassels and rubber thingies is necessary. Also, I don't really want to know what my friends' taste in toys are. Anyway, this should be interesting. I'm not really feeling all that well so I may not stay very long. Freaking allergies are out of control. My nose is red and raw. It looks like I got beat with the ugly stick.

I compared allergies from Austin to Pittsburgh for curiosity sake (I'll be there next week) and basically PA has almost zero allergens. How fantastic is that? Also, allergies are worse in San Antonio and further down South Texas than Austin. Who knew?? I'm never going South again!

Don't be dirty, people.

Oh, I'll definitely be mobile blogging some pics from tonight's event for my very, very few readers.

How long has it been for you??

Since you've thrown up? If you remember there was a Seinfeld episode about this.

Well, I broke my 2 yr mark and did it last night. I'm not happy about this. At ALL!!!

It's funny how you're having a good time, drinking a few things here and there, enjoying conversation and then BAM! You're drunk. You realize that your words are slightly slurred and you make extra effort to talk coherently. Walking is a challenge. You don't care about your makeup anymore because even if you try to fix it you are more than likely to make it worse. Hair is not an issue anymore. Humidity? Pfft. Thing of the past. I experienced the spinning room last night. I also had to sleep with one foot touching the floor so It wouldn't be so horrible.

How the hell did I do this in my younger years??

Question?? Why does your entire body hurt the day after? Seriously. I feel like I ran a freaking marathon. My legs hurt. :(

Old 97's

Kelly and I went to La Zona Rosa to see this band. They were really good. I enjoyed them. We were about 4 rows from the front (standing room only) and we were behind the most obnoxiously drunk and annoying couple in Austin. They were "drunk dancing" and knocking into everyone around them. They were playing grab ass and practically making babies in front of a few hundred people. Kelly, my little vegetarian-cupcake lover friend who is a seasoned and experienced show-goer decided that they had bumped in to us one too many times and asked them to move behind us. The guy rudely denied us and continued to bump and grind his very drunk date. About 15 min later after he knocks into us a few MORE times she pushes him away from her. He responds with a fist in her face. He didn't punch her but he would have had there not been any witnesses. Kelly is about 5 feet and pocket sized. He was about 6 feet and a gym rat. He cussed her out and told her if his gf wasn't there he would have punched her in the face. She argued back and actually found it humorous. As for myself, I stood there in shock. Typical of me. His drunk gf/date seemed annoyed that we didn't like them making babies in front of us . As if we paid money to watch them make out or something??

An older gentleman in the crowd near us saw that this roided out prick was about to hit Kelly and he kindly stepped in. The jerk turned around and continued to do act the way he had for the past hour or so. After 20 more minutes him and his girlfriend turned around and stomped on our feet and pushed us out of the way as they made their way out. People around us that witnessed everything were very happy that they left.

What a creep!! Sorry- no pics of him. I keep forgetting to take my digital camera with me.

Fredricks

Dawn's Bridal Shower is tomorrow and i'm very excited about it. I've actually never been to a bridal shower with a lingerie theme. It also happens to be at Taverna which again, I have yet to go to. I can already taste the mimosas. :)

Where I work, I'm next door to a Fredricks of Hollywood. I don't know about you but I was brought up to think that VS was "classy" and Fredricks was "trashy". For Dawn's bridal shower, I chose "trashy" over "classy" cause I know how Dawn rolls. I felt so dirty carrying around that red Fredricks bag coming in to work. I moved the contents to an AT&T bag.

To be honest with you I don't really think it's trashy cause I could have gone the "hot nurse" route but I didn't. I have never been that person that gives out those types of gifts. I wouldn't put it past Dawn though. She is afterall the one who has "adult themed" pinatas for birthday parties. Not that anyone is complaining!

**UPDATE** This is what I got her.