Christmas Eve

I lay here in bed at 7am dreading going in to work today. Maddox slept next to me the whole night. I'm not yet ready to get out of bed just yet. It's probably cold outside. The thought of having to go through the same routine of showering, makeup, hair, getting dressed, drinking coffee, driving out to bee cave - just doesn't sound appealing at this moment. It's days like today that I wish I had a normal job.

Mistake?

Ever get "happy" news from a friend and think what a huge mistake they are making? Wish I felt otherwise. :-(

My 10 year old is now a deodorant wearer. I don't know how it happened, nor do I want to know. All I know is that it's freaking me out. Last week he got a love note on his desk with a heart on it. He didn't know what to do with it and didn't understand it so he turned it in to the teacher (bless his heart). Anyway, poor O will have to talk to him about the "birds and the bees" soon. Yuck.

Now that he's an official deodorant wearer - do you think it's time I tell him there's no Santa Clause?

pregnancy - WTF?

Why is everyone pregnant? My hairdresser is 7 weeks pregnant with her 4th child. Her husband and she are doing the "natural family planning" recommended by the Catholic Church. You basically track when you're ovulating and don't have sexual relations during that time to avoid pregnancy. The church is so against birth control so they recommend NFP. I'm pretty sure she and her husband didn't plan this fourth child but it's just proof that whatever the church is recommending - IS BROKEN! In addition to that - is the church going to be paying for this 4th mouth? Doubt it.

Ok-RRRRR!

When I refer to, "Ok-RRRR" - this is what i'm referring to.

tylenol PM

This is some good shit. All I know is that it puts your ass to bed AND it gives you crazy dreams. Is this what 30 something's have now? Prescription and non-prescription drugs? What a sad reality.

In other news, i've considered writing or tweeting "Ridiculous things people say in a cell phone store". Ready? I'll give you a little sample.

1. I've been with AT&T longer than you've been alive.
2. I spend THOUSANDS of dollars a month with you guys. ($39.00 rate plan, okRRRR)
3. What do you mean the phone isn't free. I've been with you guys 2345234524524 years.
4. I just want a phone that WORKS. I don't need all the bells and whistles!
5. Data plan for an iphone? Why would you need that?!!!
6. What's iTunes? (5 and 6 are usually said by the same person)
7. What do you mean I need to update the software on my phone?!!!! Just fix it!!
8. I'm not technologically savvy.
9. What do you need my ID for? Who would try and steal service?
10. Give me the 4G phone.

Then I realized that i'd better not.

I've risen from the dead, bitches!

That's right. After almost 2 yrs of not blogging (I blame my job and kids), i've decided it's time to get my thoughts out in a more conducive manner. Otherwise known as blogging. Now i'm not going to make any crazy commitment about posting every day or every other day- just a commitment to not let it go another 2 yrs. Fair enough?

Today a friend of mine on fb started posting old pics and it brought up how I feel about my life right NOW. Right now, i'm feeling a bit out of place. I just transferred to a new store with new people and new managers. Change is always for the best but the older I get, the harder change gets.
I've been extremely introspective lately. Like, disgustingly self aware of my strengths and weaknesses. What i'm seeing is a loss of friends that I use to have. I see myself avoiding social interactions and shying away from friends. So what am I doing to change this? I'm not quite sure just yet. I don't think i'm happy with myself in general right now. I think that once i'm happy with myself, internally and externally- the rest will come more easily. I do know that I need to eat better, go to the gym, spend more time outdoors, BLOG, and just be creative. Is this a mid-life crisis? Good God. I hope not.
I hope this is the first step to getting myself back to my old self. I kinda miss her.